My Beliefs

Finally posting because I have something meaningful to share. Also, I finally got a phone where I can blog wherever.
Anyway, I have a photo blog where I had almost 300 followers. Its pictures are of things I have talked about here in the past.
Also, here on this Blogspot blog, I believe I have told you about my beliefs as a vegetarain and how I had originally set out to live primarily as a vegetarian and also eat the meat I myself would have killed.
Now, today, on this blog, I posted a picture of my hunting gloves.
With that picture, I used the hashtag #veganhunter.
One of my followers commented and we had a conversation like this:
He: "What is a vegan hunter?"
Me: "Someone who set out to be vegan and hunt for their own food. I wanted to do this because I feel hunting is the most humane way if you do this yourself. Only, this idea never happened."
Then someone else came.
She: "What do you mean?"
Me: "I mean I was going to go hunting and eat my own meat and live mainly as a vegetarian but the hunting never happened."
She: "Thanks for explaining :)"
He: "Thanks for listening and explaining. I now must unfollow you because it does not go with vegan ideas or with my heart for you killing animals. Thanks for promoting vegetarianism and humane slaughter. For it is the best hunters/humane killers can do."

So, after seeing my number of followers go down by one, it made me unsettled. Unsettled because I do live a vegan lifestyle to the best of my ability, and no vegan is perfect. As for my beliefs, they might be frowned upon and may veer away slightly from "true vegan" beliefs, but my goal is the same: Stop the animal torture and pain.
For me, even though I've never hunted, killkng an animal would put you in a position where you must humble yourself and respect the animal that will help you survive. Also, it brings you back to the roots of mankind.
Anyway, I was also sad he unfollowed me just because I'm open and accepting of hunting.
My photo blog only posts my vegan meals and life. Why can't we live with the knowledge that I believe something different?
Our goals our the same. Just how we get their might be different.

I've Been Waiting, and I Am About to Be Rewarded

"Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." - Isaiah 41:10

I am about to fall into tears.  I have been wanting to write a post today, but now I just need to write out of pure joy and happiness!  It's one of those happiness' that needs to be shared with the world!

I felt so alone sometimes in these past months, out of pure depression.  My whole family has felt it, but now it  will all be over.

I can't tell you in words how freeing this is.  

Also, out of one of the many celebrations, I wanted to watch Spirit Stallion of the Cimarron and make some type of pumpkin-fall-ish dessert!

I hope to do these things soon :)

Furthermore, another happy, happy announcement, is that my riding has dramatically changed in the past two /three weeks!  Why??  It went from me falling forward and having horrible balance (I have no idea how I got into those bad habits), to having an awesome trot, leg, posture, and confidence!  

My confidence has become so amazing these past few weeks - starting with school.  Then transferring into the idea that I could be having a horse very soon and the fact I want to be a vet for them and other animals. 

I want a life with them. 

I learned how to use the dressage whip, too.  

Whenever I had gotten it before, I didn't know how to use it and it always got stuck in my stirrup.  

Now, even though I still have trouble trying to keep a trot and getting it to my other hand when changing direction, I was having a blast using it at my last lesson!

I wasn't hurting Phantom, but he was a little lazy and I never hit him hard!  That is the one thing I can't do to any horse or creature.  Nuh uh. 

I also asked my instructor when I can canter, and she said she had the utmost, complete faith that I could do it, but now it was just waiting for my confidence.  

I wonder if we will tomorrow :)

Another happy thing also, is that I had Justin's Dark Chocolate Peanut Butter cups today which I shared with my dad.

We both agree they are better than Reese's.  It's like, Screw REESE's!  

I also got another cookbook, Vegan Food Gifts.  It looks amazing.  I am now waiting for Very Vegan Christmas Cookies. 

Ah, if I haven't made it clear already, I love life.  Especially right now.  

I can't tell you how dramatic the changes in my emotional levels have changed within the past two weeks.  

It's been one amazing roller coaster. 

So, I hope I get that phone soon so you can see my life :) 

Have a good rest of the weekend guys :)

P.S. if you follow my blog, make it public so I can feel like I am not just writing to a page :( Thanks :)