Saturday, October 6, 2012

I've Been Waiting, and I Am About to Be Rewarded

"Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." - Isaiah 41:10

I am about to fall into tears.  I have been wanting to write a post today, but now I just need to write out of pure joy and happiness!  It's one of those happiness' that needs to be shared with the world!

I felt so alone sometimes in these past months, out of pure depression.  My whole family has felt it, but now it  will all be over.

I can't tell you in words how freeing this is.  

Also, out of one of the many celebrations, I wanted to watch Spirit Stallion of the Cimarron and make some type of pumpkin-fall-ish dessert!
I hope to do these things soon :)

Furthermore, another happy, happy announcement, is that my riding has dramatically changed in the past two /three weeks!  Why??  It went from me falling forward and having horrible balance (I have no idea how I got into those bad habits), to having an awesome trot, leg, posture, and confidence!  
My confidence has become so amazing these past few weeks - starting with school.  Then transferring into the idea that I could be having a horse very soon and the fact I want to be a vet for them and other animals. 
I want a life with them. 
I learned how to use the dressage whip, too.  
Whenever I had gotten it before, I didn't know how to use it and it always got stuck in my stirrup.  
Now, even though I still have trouble trying to keep a trot and getting it to my other hand when changing direction, I was having a blast using it at my last lesson!
I wasn't hurting Phantom, but he was a little lazy and I never hit him hard!  That is the one thing I can't do to any horse or creature.  Nuh uh. 
I also asked my instructor when I can canter, and she said she had the utmost, complete faith that I could do it, but now it was just waiting for my confidence.  
I wonder if we will tomorrow :)

Another happy thing also, is that I had Justin's Dark Chocolate Peanut Butter cups today which I shared with my dad.
We both agree they are better than Reese's.  It's like, Screw REESE's!  
I also got another cookbook, Vegan Food Gifts.  It looks amazing.  I am now waiting for Very Vegan Christmas Cookies. 
Ah, if I haven't made it clear already, I love life.  Especially right now.  
I can't tell you how dramatic the changes in my emotional levels have changed within the past two weeks.  
It's been one amazing roller coaster. 
So, I hope I get that phone soon so you can see my life :) 
Have a good rest of the weekend guys :)
P.S. if you follow my blog, make it public so I can feel like I am not just writing to a page :( Thanks :)